im sorry to hear that someone has to go through life such as that. but everyone needs love and attention no matter their needs. heres what u need to do. u need to find the most INDICA pot u can. if i had some id send it to u, however most of mine is sativa. i will give u a link to some people whom might be able to help u. but no garentees.
for this situation, id make a extremely light concoction to start with. maybe .2 -.5 grams of trim/shake/stems for ur cup of tea. i believe it will help calm, relax and ease pain.
i was going to send u a PM for the link. so if u want to make an account here so that i can privatly send u the link then PM me and ill give u the link..
"An ounce of prevention equals a pound of cure."
treat it before u get it